Fears: abandonment/ being alone, falling, judgement
Annoyances: moths, bees, stupid people, bad drivers, weird house noises
Accomplishments: regional champion for poetry
Confusions: stupid people, racism/sexism/homophobia, physics
Sorrows: lack of confidence, physics, overspreading myself
Dreams: professionally doing music or theater, not being homeless
Idiosyncrasies: tapping my hand or foot constantly, nail biting
Risks: don't take them
Beloved possessions: guitar, oboe(now), fake lizard(then)
Problems: procrastination, self-doubt, over-committing
I over-commit. I seem to be incapable of saying no to anything. I am currently a member of 3 clubs, cast in a show, working 2 times a week, attending school, doing concert band, and generally stretching myself too thin. Any time anyone asks me to do anything it seems impossible for me to say no. I feel like I'm letting people down every time I say no to something. If someone approaches me and asks me to play oboe at church, or help babysit their kids, or anything, I cannot seem to just tell them that I don't have the time. So I commit to things I don't really want to do anyway and they take away time from the things i do want to do. It's really frustrating because I know that I do it, but I can't fix it. It's almost worse when you do know that you do it, because then I agree to something I don't want to do, and then immediately after I beat myself up over it and make it worse.
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